Originally written 27th April 2013
I don’t know about anybody else, but over the years I have struggled with not really knowing what I want to do in life.
It is only really over the last 8 months or so, that writing has come to light and I now find myself writing on websites. For me English has always been a struggle and I am not ashamed to admit it. Through a variety of different life challenges my studies suffered at school and English was one of them.
Over the last few weeks or so certain things have started to happen in my life, which has led me to take hold of learning new things regardless of how scary they are and give it go.
My current job at the moment involves me going around town on a bus with a driver and picking people up to take to a day care centre and then dropping them off in the afternoon. Before I got this job, I needed a job that would enable me to have time for my daughter in the school holidays and also to be able to learn and write.
Most people who know me think that I look into things too much, but what I am about to write, is proof of that what I really want and need are beginning to appear. I have written lots about how other people have achieved things in their life’s and wanted to share my experiences.
You never know what is around the corner
I needed a job, so one day a white bus came round the corner and on it said “Expand Your Horizons And Learn Something New Today” on the side. I thought that this is fine, but I need a paid job and not a course at college, where I would not earn a salary. I went to see about a job and it wasn’t suitable and and on the way back, rang the door bell of a day care centre and asked about any vacancies. The lady invited me in and then said what a coincidence that they were looking for someone and had just mentioned this ten minutes ago. We had a chat and they took my number. The following day I was to meet the manager at the centre and discuss the job. As I walked to the centre and up the road and into the car park, there sat the white bus, with the writing on the side that I had seen a few days ago. I got the job.
What Can I learn, That Will Help Me Achieve My Ambitions
So what about the learning side. I want to write and maybe write a book and to do this I need to brush up on my skills and also learn about grammar etc. I visit my local library quite a bit and at the back of the room is the learning suite. I went in the other day and this is where the expand your horizons logo is. I asked about courses and I am starting next week on an English short course, which will lead to a qualification for me. The course is also free, so that is even better.
Its Not What You Know, But Who You Know
Just the other week my driver has changed to a new guy who is in his fifties. I keep wondering why I am I on this bus and everyone else is travelling except for me? The reason became clear the other day. My new driver left home in his twenties and went backpacking for 3 years. I told him about writing articles and he told me that on his travels he wrote a book about his experiences, which has never been published. He has kindly offered to let me read it. One of my other drivers, has been all over Asia as a driver and as a tourist. So I need to get my pen and paper out and while out and about talk to them about their travels and write it all down. I don’t need to go round the world, everyone is right here.
Facing Your Fears
The last thing is making me face my fears as well, so that if I do travel I won’t be so scared. I think for me, I don’t go very far and almost feel that I am on an elastic and just go round in circles. I get anxious on the bus, and sometimes quite scared. It seems strange I know, but when you don’t go very far anymore, it is surprising how your body and mind reacts to this and the physical symptoms you get. I am embarking on some relaxation and even acupuncture, which I have never had, but are willing to give it a go.
You may think after reading this that I am totally crazy and need to get out more, or you might actually agree and believe that at the moment these are the things that I should be doing. Either way, I am happy with what I am doing and where my life is going and the new experiences that I am having. Life has provided some great people and opportunities that will allow me to write about, without leaving my country. I create articles like everyone else just from a different perspective.
I have trained in reiki and had reiki myself, and I have also done yoga and meditation. I think the key thing for me, is that I have become more open minded about things. I am more aware of my surroundings and also what I see, and instead of letting life pass me by, like the cars on the road, I open my eyes more and take in what I see.
So the next time you are out and about just have a look and observe what you see. When you get home, recall these things and see if like me, they relate to anything that you are doing or would like to do.